an introvert's blabbering space.

(via tangledconstellations)
We all have awkward first times especially being an introvert in a crowd you just knew for a few days. It’s sometimes hard to let out that loud boyish girl inside you given most of the gang you’re with the moment are guys. Though I am really a carefree spirit around guy friends and relatives, there’s this barrier that’s holding me to give my best to be a silent girly-girl type.
It’s especially awkward when it comes to singing - which I know I haven’t been given talent of. XD. Singing loud in karaokes with people who’ve not yet fully known you is really an embarrassing idea. It gives me the shivers and creeps, I think I have no face to show anyone afterwards (Wala na akong mukhang maihaharap haha).
So after hours of meek containment, watching and listening to the gang let out their voices, and after series of encouragements from them, I gave it a try. After all, I have to go home soon. The song I chose was Creep by Radiohead since it has a low key of voice needed (and all the other songs I wanted to sing are unavailable from the karaoke machine -.-). I sang with my guy voice (which is my normal voice, because I am a girl with a damn sexy guy voice, yeah). I sounded like I’m drunk, thanks to the lyrics and the tone of the song.
A moment later, most of them were singing together with me. I was touched with all my heart. My sense of time stopped - we were all singing happily and carefree, like brothers and soldiers who just survived war. And one batchmate whom I never expected to be all out singing with activities like these sang with all of us. And he sang with me and smiled with full cheers and enthusiasm! I felt very happy, I felt close to them all in an instant. People I never knew I could be interacting with are being so open, sharing their joys and laughter.
I’ve never proven the power of smiles until now. It really can touch lives of people, even those we do not know. :)